Radha…

“Prem Bhakti Jaha Hoite/ Avidya vinasha yate… “ Prema! First is Prema. Without Prem everything is nothing. When there is Prem things change. In Bhakti also if Prema is there all ignorance – avidya means ignorance – will go. See about Prema! Prema is… when knowledge ends – love starts. When you want to know about something – you cannot love. And when you stop knowing anything you automatically start love. Where knowledge ends love starts. You can see in material world also. Similarly with this philosophy, what is in material world,  Krisna gives us to experience and learn about this. And when you will know - you will do about this. Then you will know about Krisna – He is chitta-chyor – means He is the cheater of hearts. Cheater of butter. He is always going to the house and He cheats the butter. If you cook for yourself He will go and He will cheat that. And gopies are telling: “You are cheating – no problem, You eat – no problem. But You cheat and eat and throw everything! You throw, You give to monkeys and you give to all your friends! Why You do this? You eat – no problem; but You are throwing, You are distributing, You are giving to everyone – why You do like this?!” You see…. What is meaning of butter? Butter is coming from milk. If you bring 10 kilos of milk you can make half kilo, one kilo butter. Means – the essence of milk is butter. So essence of life, essence in your life is Prema. That is butter. And when this Prem, love, goes anywhere, any place in this material world – Krisna is the cheater of butter and butter is Prem. So He comes and says: “No, this is not for you! Why you are giving to others? This is for Me! I will take! If you not give I will take like this!” Because He is naughty, He is cheater, He is not straight – He is curved; He is not clear – so He is black… All these qualifications are there! You see… this black cheater, butter-cheater, heart-cheater, cloth-cheater (He is also cheating cloths of gopies)… nobody can help from this naughty boy! This is sweetness, this is His quality.

There are two qualities of Krisna; one is in Mathura and Dwaraka – He is Supreme Personality of Godhead! And He is opulent! He is King, He is the controller of all Universe. He controls all Universe, everybody is listening; what He wants to do he do. But He becomes tired by this controlling. And He says: “I want to go in control of others.” And you see… there is only one way to control this Supreme Personality – that is love. Lubov. That is only Liubov.  You see… This is the way… He controls all! All universe, all demigods, all in creation – everything! You see, this is sky – color is blue. You see the ocean color is blue. And you see if you fly 48 hours, whole of your life if you fly by plain – you will see whole the sky is blue! There is no other  color. You see… so this is the color of Supreme. And this Supreme is become very simple. He is the controller of everybody, we are puppets! We dance what He do – because He is the Supreme.  But in love: gopies say: “You dance, I will give you butter”. And He says: “Yes, I am dancing!” and He starts dancing. He controls, He can bind all in the Universe, you see… because He is the Supreme! But this Supreme Personality of Godhead, in love, Yashoda Maya can bind. And He says: “I am ready to bind Myself, because you love Me.” So, He is the creator of everything. We cannot by any offering, by any thing to give if I want to return to Him, because He is the creator of everything. But He also miss one thing. And that is love. And He cannot do this alone! If I want to love myself – it is not possible. For that I need other person. So FOR THAT He needs someone – to love! So He only is looking at the faces of all living entities – “Who is ready to love Me?” And He is ready to dance, He is ready to sing, He is ready to do anything what devotee wants. This is Prema! And this is Bhakti! When this will come, all ignorance will go. 

You see… “Cakshu dhan dilogei/ janme janme prabhu sei”.“Chakshu dhan dilo” means “I get the EYES now”. By mercy of Gurudev I get the eyes! Means – before getting my Gurudev I was blind; so I am telling that I get the eyes to see! Right or wrong? You can FEEL some person, who gets the mercy of a Spiritual Master – he can realize: “Really, before I was blind! Now I have eyes to see. And I can see the reality and the false.” Only after that. So this is mercy – the eyes, given by the Spiritual Master.

Three days back I was in a church in Hungary, near Bhuspest… and in that church there is one picture. Firs I preyed to Lord Jesus and then I asked to the priest, because the priest became very nice with me, because hindy monk wants to go in the church and he is very happy to see… I go and give respect to Jesus. And I say: “What is this picture?” In the hand of an angel there is one key. One bird is there in the center and on the other side second angel is holding a balance. I asked: “What is this meaning?” Can you say… anyone?

Yashoda: The birth is the soul, the holly spirit.

Sadhu Maharaj: Right. I agree.

Hari Lila: The key to God is the balance.

Sadhu Maharaj: No – first is key, second is bird and third is balance.

Other: The key is love?

Other: Balance should be justice?

Sadhu Maharaj: Yes. Balance is justice, key is love, right. But how to use it? I said to the priest: “You see the key? If this is your flat and you don’t have the key you cannot go inside. So key is the important thing. And when you will open with the key by mercy of divine person, you will understand about yourself. If you understand yourself, what you are – that is soul. And when you understand that you are a soul – you have in your hand the balance, you become the angel to balance yourself. You can balance yourself what is truth and what is false. You see! And he said: “Yes! Yes!” I feel: “This is your philosophy and I am telling you. These are very important things. You have to paint it nicely!” Without self-realization we have no balance. And we are unbalanced. If you see somebody has no self-realization, they are very unbalanced people. They are MAD! Mad to earn money, mad to do sex, mad to do anything that they don’t know that they are doing! Because they don’t know that they are doing! They have no idea of the other side, only one side they know. Unbalanced. But if you see both sides… If you see Bulgaria and you see India – then you can balance. And if you not see, how you can balance?! So, if you understand about yourself, soul – then you can balance. You can judge yourself. Before we are always trying to see others. Always watching to others – what they are doing, they are not good, they are bad, fighting, everything is going wrong! But self-realized souls never see others. They see only themselves. If they see others, they will forget to see themselves! They have no time to see others. This is balance. You see?... Radhe Radhe Govinda…..

Everything is inside. Peace is inside. Happiness is inside, Love is inside. When you will see yourself, you can do everything. Because, if I will know that I am soul, I can see soul in every place. And if I can see the soul in every place, then I cannot live without loving! And then I will search who is the creator of the soul. And when I will know – o, Supersoul is the creator, then I will like to find out His name. If there is no name, then I will try to put – to love! Without name how I will love? Without form how I will love? So I need the form – to love – name and form. I have never seen the person, who can love without form! And without name anybody can love. We need his form and my form. To love. This is the highest spiritual goal, the highest goal of the spiritual life. I am 7 days here and in mornings I will talk about this highest and deep philosophy from “Caitanya Charitamrita” – only pure love it is, you will see every verse is only pure love in it! And how to love and how to move in love – by soul how I can move to loving consciousness. In morning, because at that time only persons who are free to listen this – they will come. And in evening general people will come. So for those, who try to know more, who want to develop more spiritual things – in mornings. And evenings – also! So you can ask any questions that you like.

Question of Hari Lila: Those, who has already achieved the state to make this balance practically they doesn’t want to do this, because they are looking only to themselves. They are not judging, because they are looking to themselves. Is that true?

Sadhu Maharaj: Yes.

Hari Lila: Is it that the reason why it is said that one, who can do everything does not do anything?

Sadhu Maharaj: Yes… There are two states: when I am doing and He is looking; and one state will come: He is doing and I am looking. He is doing and I am seeing! And one state – I am doing and He is seeing. So when HE is doing I am looking and doing nothing. Although this hand is moving, you work, everything… but you THINK that He is doing.  And when He do, I see “what You are doing”. I can watch, myself!

Hari Lila: Jay! Just perfect! So many years I have wanted to hear… such a clear explanation! I am completely satisfied!

Sadhu Maharaj: Questions… You are not asking and I am not a speaker. I am translating – what I am telling. I am not a speaker. I am also listening. And when you are asking you are helping me to listen. You are helping me that I can also listen with you. So I am telling you to ask, because when it will come, I will also listen with you.

Question: So when He is doing and we are watching we are like His instruments. Is that true?

Sadhu Maharaj: Yes. This is the highest state, when we feel like this.

Question: Is there such a state when He acts and we act also?

Sadhu Maharaj: When He is acting I am also acting – by looking. This is also acting! When I work, He looks – He is also acting, He is taking care, watching. And when He does we are watching what He is doing. That is also acting. Because of the mercy of the Spiritual Master we got the divine eyes to see. So we are seeing – He is doing and we are seeing. At that time we act, we do everything. We act means we are doing ALL the normal work. But in that work we are not acting, we feel that I am not doing anything – He is doing! And I am seeing when He is working and I am seeing myself that really He is working. I am also listening what I am telling – voice is coming from MY mouth and still I am listening. Because I feel: He is talking and I am listening. You see…. No? Radhe Radhe Govinda…..

Question of Bhakti Shakti: How can we pass to the others this love, that we have received? Because we are imperfect, we make many mistakes and we are not a good example… So it is very difficult to enthuse the others…

Sadhu Maharaj: You see… When we got the mercy, then we will become full. You see one glass of water and that glass is empty. You full the water… and you full the water… and you full the water…. Water will start coming out. And when this will come out, you cannot stop it! Water is coming out! Because it is coming from there (from above) and glass has no place to keep… You see the ocean? So nice the ocean… Only blue you will see. If you come out from the ocean, you want to go back immediately, you don’t want to go. Because you want to sit and see the waves. Because waves are coming from the ocean. You see… when waves come, they are so powerful, they will take you inside. This is the wave of love! This is the wave in the form of Radha and the ocean in the form of Krisna. The waves are Radha and Krisna is the ocean. And all the rivers – from Bulgaria, from Hungary, from Italy , from Africa, from Germany, many rivers are there… from India, all rivers – where they are going? In the ocean. So ocean is Krisna. Why Krisna is ocean? Why not Radha? Because He is blue and he is blue. If you match with color – it is Krisna! Then you see… waves in ocean… is Radha! Ecstasy, ananda from inside! When ecstasy comes you start jumping. You have no control on your body. When Krisna becomes in ecstasy – THAT is Radha! And you see, when ocean is in ecstasy, there are waves! When you are in ecstasy you start melting.  You try to stop yourself, but you cannot. And what happens? That your eyes will start seeing, that you are melting, that tears automatically come. And if you touch these tears, they are not hot tears. They are cold tears – making your heart pure. Before heart is a stone and by melting it becomes soft, useful like butter. So Krisna will come and say: “This butter is for Me!” In evenings I will talk the stories of Krisna – in Mathura, in Dwaraka and in Vrindavan – what is the difference? And what is the best? Why He is Supreme? In Vrindavan nobody is ready to accept Him as a Supreme. They do not believe that He is Supreme. You see.. I will talk about this also – in evenings. In other places out of Vrindavan everybody like Him, because He is Supreme. And in Vrindavan nobody see He is Supreme. They say: “He is my friend.” “He is my son”. “He is my lover”. “I cannot live without Him!” “He is my heart” “He is with me like a family member”. They are not ready to accept as a God even, not Supreme! They love from their hearts in close connection. Nobody goes in Vrindavan for Krisna! Krisna is the Supreme Personality of Godhead. We don’t need to go to Vrindavan for Krisna. We go to Vrindavan to take the dust of Vrindavan, the ART of Vrindavan. Because in this Vrindavan Krisna is walking without shoes. This is the art of Vrindavan. And – this is the land of love. A person, who has become mad in the love for Krisna – that is Vrindavan. We go to take that dust – when in my life this will happen, I will also fall in love with Krisna like them. This is Vrindavan, you see….. Radhe Radhe Govinda….

There are two moods of loving. “You are mine!” and “I am yours.” You see the difference? You are mine… and I am yours. What is the best mood?

Bhakti Shakti: I am yours.

Other: Both.

Hari Lila: My heart is yours.

Sadhu Maharaj: You see, I am showing the difference. I am yours! And now it is your responsibility to give me cloths, give me everything… I am your wife, you have to take care of me, you have to go to earn for me, because I am yours. This is your responsibility, because I am yours! And – you are mine! ALL responsibility is mine responsibility, because you are mine! So – what is the best, the highest mood? In Vrindavan devotee say: You are mine, Krisna! That is my responsibility, You don’t need to do anything. I will do for You everything! I will go and earn for You, I will bring food for You, I will cook for You, I will dress You…I will do everything what I can do for You. You are my… husband, I will take care of You. This is my responsibility, because You are mine!

Comment: But this also means I will control You.

Sadhu Maharaj: If I can control you in love, I can control everything. And there is no rights – control is there. You see – love means control. You can control Supreme Personality of Godhead in this love. I agree with you – control. But you can control Supreme Lord Krisna in this mood. I agree with you! This is the best – to control Him! Before we are in His control. And by this way He will be in our control. This is the Vrindavan mood. And this is the highest mood; in Mathura and in Dwaraka – I am Yours. I am Your wife – in Dwaraka everybody say – You give me ten children, You give me one house to live, You give me money to live, everything You have to give for me. But if You are mine I have to give everything and I can control You also. Radhe Radhe Govinda….

Thank you… I am very fortunate, you give so much love to me… And you call me here, I am very fortunate for this. And I am very thankful for all these things. Radha… Prem… Two and a half words – pre and ama…If you understand about the meaning of prema – two and a half words – you will become a pandit, you will become master, you will know everything. So first we have to start with this – then move in the spiritual life. And for this you need to know about your soul. Because if you do from your bodily conception – that is no prema. That will become other word. So Prem will come only by heart, from soul. This is the reality. Radhe Radhe… No? Mmm? This is the business heart to heart. Soul to soul.

Question of Kripadham: Would you like to tell us a story about Radha, because we had heard that in Vrindavan they only speak about Radha…

Sadhu Maharaj: I also am only talking about Radha… And from tomorrow only I will talk morning and evening about Radha. And in morning I will say if you have become very strong like a stone, but you have to melt in two days.

Question: What must be relation in the family between man, wife, children and God? In this connection that you spoke “you are mine” and “I am yours” …

Sadhu Maharaj: You see… for your children you are mother, for your mother you are a child. And for your husband you are wife and for your brother you are sister, for your friend you are friend. You are alone, but you have so many relations. And what is the best what you taste in your life? You have to give this to the God. Best! We have to give the best thing in our life! No? What you have taste the best in your life – you give to God. Same relation you have to develop with Him. What is your experience? Because if you would say “God” without name – then there is no form. For that you need one form and one name. Then you can love. Then He will come in your presence. He will come. By name you will call and He will come. This is telepathy. If you call with name someone – he has to come. This is telepathy! So name is because of love. Name only comes when there is love. Without love I would not like to think name. And when there is love I cannot forget the name. I cannot forget the form. Both things I cannot forget. Because of love. First name and then form. So easy… it’s very easy! No difficult! What we are doing in this material world – that is difficult! Easiest way is to love!

Question of Hari Lila: You said that the best taste that we have in our material life – this is what we have to offer to God. But do we have to renounce this type of taste, or we have to develop it towards God, using our material relations?

Sadhu Maharaj: You see… What means renouncement? NO renouncement! ATTACHEMENT! If you are attached, everything you leave. Everything is there, but you have no interest, because the attachment is so powerful. So attachment is the main thing! Why renouncement? BE attached! Automatically everything… you have no time to take. No?

Hari Lila: Some activities person continues to do, because he has some taste to them and he understands that the taste is not good, but he continues to take.

Sadhu Maharaj: Don’t bother. Do… do, till your attachment is not developed in one place. Don’t try to press. Slowly thing will come. That is most easy way. If you press to change anything then you can feel sometimes suffocation… go easy way! Slowly connection will change everything. This is my personal experience. I am also too much attached to some good things, bad things… and I cannot live very easily. But when you are attached more you have no time to think.

Hari Lila: Definitely I don’t push anything, I am very calmly walking…

Sadhu Maharaj: I know you! That’s why I am telling.

Hari Lila: But in case with the woman – some mataji, for example, has a child. And she is attached to her child, she loves her child. But once if she is attached to God then she will abandon the interest to her child….

Sadhu Maharaj: No, no, no, no, no, no, no…. Then I want to clear this. You see, when you are attached with Krishna… you will see that mataji is loving more her child. She will start loving most everyone! She will not stop loving anyone. Because she will have more love, glass will flow from water! The water is coming! And it will flow, it will go to everyone. What about son, what about husband, what about… everyone should be satisfied. Because this is flow of mercy. Water will come WAVES will come!

Hari Lila: So we will start seeing Krisna in everything?

Sadhu maharaj: Yes… Everywhere… He is Supreme, everywhere, it’s so simple! Where I see I will see only that thing. In you, in him – everywhere! So where to hate, where to fight… where to not love?! Because Krisna is everywhere! And if I don’t love He will love – because I am attached with Krisna, no? And if He starts loving everybody will start love you.

No renouncement! Renouncement is not good. Attachment is good. Sorry…. You might think I am a mad person, but I think like this. Radha….. RA DHA. If you reverse this: Dha Ra. Dhara is the flow. You see the river – flows! Flows – non stop! And the flow of love is non stop. That is Radha. Non stop, never stops! All the time – flow… Only go and take bath. That is Radha. … Ha-ha-ha….. Radhe Radhe Govinda….

Jay…. Radha……

You see… you don’t want to come out. This is the highest mood of the spiritual life. In Hungary, there are hundred people sitting and nobody wants to go home. It’s about ten now… Go!... Nobody wants to go… This is the real life! We have to come in this consciousness. You see… how is happiness, how is ecstasy and how ananda is there… peace is there! Everything is there. Because connection is there. Connect yourself! You see – no connection, no light. If you put connection – light will be there. This is soul and Krisna is power. And this connection is the Spiritual Master. That is the point. Thank you! You help me to say these things. And I am also listening with you. I am not telling anything. I am so very fortunate by your mercy…You inspire me to listen these things…

Lecture given: 30.06.2003 in Sofia, Bulgaria